Goal is such an amazing thing, it can push a person to a limit to getting it.
but after all this year of seeking it, i don't think i have the chances to get it
parents don't even know the situation only know how to say study hard then can get to poly.
Do they ever know that going to poly needs alot of money? and of cause i would like to go but
u guys just don't make any effort to help me, i know the road is still long because i will be going ns first before going
to poly. but yet if i save it for like 2 years money i think can survive for one year school fee lo
Then my mum always stay home and sleep, currently never work but still lazy to cook. always say a excuse that
my sister will kou bei, fuck lo what a lame excuse la. she dun want to eat then ask her go buy herself la
then always when i hit the point nothing to say already, i wonder what is to be afraid of? time has change
u got to have ur own thinking and decision not just other ppl kou bei then u just give in. Is like she is biggest in the
family meh, I really really give up liao lo had try so many different method to communicate with my mum
that about the financial problem but she just don't seems to care lo, i wonder is it the way i say she don't understand or am i speaking alien language to her? let see hard way, soft also cannot
now then i know how my grandma felt when she was taking of her when young. she only listen to the hard way
those kindergarten teaching style then she will listen.
i really hope she can really understand and go find a part time job or wad, at least low pay better than nothing
my pay really has it limit, cuz mine is odd job got event then i take de.
cannot be i always get pay everybody come collect money from me ma, i also need to use one lo
aiya really dunno la, how i wish i was born in other family!

Finally finish my exams, and here comes second semester
but at the time being don't know why dun really have the mood to work like usual
so i only promise sally that i will help her for the last week end, which means temporary for 2 days
reasons is everytime take the same promoter job is kinda sian already. So now maybe will try to find
another job which dun make me lose my interest that easily,

but seriously i need to try not to wake up so late, today woke up at 4pm maybe last wk end been working
and carrying things so i'm kinda tire. so as usual surfing the net and watch some movies
then that's the end of my day

so sian lo, still cannot get ppl attention. is like i'm completely invisible
as i treasure everyone as my friend but not really most of them appreciate it
so sad la, even forget i was there when we go out the whole day.
Am wondering, am i that easy to forget?